20 Songs

I’VE BEEN out of sorts since the 25th. Christmas was fine, all right, but my headspace? Not so much.

My room is a mess, my hair is a mess, and my wallet is a — it’s missing. I don’t remember where I left it. I know it’s somewhere around the house but I’m too drained to look for it, man. I’m exhausted even though I haven’t been doing anything. Ah shit, I hate this feeling.

Anyway I needed some sense of faux-productivity tonight so I did this tag from Sleeping Suburb. Twenty questions, twenty songs. I discovered some of these songs only this year and, hmm, should I write a year-end essay too? I’ll think about it, but maybe only after I find my wallet.

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Your favorite song

One of my favorite songs this year is “Lose It” by SWMRS. And tell me why d’you have to have such a damn good taste in music? / Yeah if all my favorite songs make me think of you I’m gonna lose it.

I fucking lost it.

A song you hate

Hate is too strong a word for music, don’t you think?

A song that makes you sad

I’ll go with “1972” by Josh Rouse. We’re going through the changes / hoping for replacement / until we find a way out of this hole.

A song that reminds you of somebody

“Sweet Disposition” by The Temper Trap reminds me of Delfin Mercado. Won’t stop ’til it’s over / Won’t stop to surrender. If you’re reading this, mars, I miss you!

A song that makes you happy

“Pynk” by Janelle Monáe, cause boy it’s cool / if you got the blue.

A song that reminds you of a specific moment

“Leave It In My Dreams” by The Voidz, but I will share the story some other time. This is a really good song though, especially if you dig The Strokes. Searching for meaning in a combination of notes / Don’t overthink it, don’t overthink it. 

A song you know all the lyrics to

“Qing Fei De Yi” by Harlem Yu. Yep.

A song that makes you dance right away

I don’t dance e.

A song that helps you fall asleep

I prefer ambient noises to help me sleep, but “Old Pine” by Ben Howard is a solid bedtime tune. If this song were a girl, I think she’d be a damn pretty girl.

A guilty pleasure song

Ex-B’s hit songs, but I don’t listen to them anymore. Pangit na nga mag-live, endorser pa ni BG. Ew!

A song you can relate to

Oh boy, baboy: “Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots Part 1” by The Flaming Lips. Cause she knows that it’s demanding / to defeat those evil machines.

A song you used to love but you now hate

“Love Me Like You Do” by Ellie Goulding. Nagsawa lang, ganern, pero hindi naman hate.

A song from your favorite album

Do favorite EP’s count? One my favorites this year is Megumi Acorda’s Unexpectedly, and I really like the track “Ghost.” Dancing in my head last night / dreams of different ways to die. Oh Megu. 💔

A song you can play on an instrument

“Truth No. 2” by Dixie Chicks, haha.

A song you’ve sung or you’d like to sing in public

“When Love and Hate Collide” by Def Leppard (feat. Taylor Swift, hehe) is a dope karaoke song. Crazeh? Crazeh!

The perfect song for driving

“Night Drive” by Gotye. Trust me on this one, kids. This song is Gorgeous, capital G. And even if you’re not driving, listen to this at night while you’re in a moving vehicle and — aah, such a quiet joy.

A song from your childhood

“What’s Up” by 4 Non Blondes, and I said yeah yeah yeah yeah!

A song you’d like to be played on your wedding

“Naaalala Ka” by Rey Valera. Kay sarap nang may minamahal…wala nang iibigin pang iba. Pero walang forever! Charotz.

A song you’d like to be played on your funeral

“Tala” by Sarah G. At kung hanggang dito lang talaga tayo…

A song nobody would expect you to like

“BYOB” by System of a Down. If you at least get to the refrain, I think you’ll like it, too. 🤘

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The featured image is a screenshot from Lose It’s official music video.