sure. wait. what?

Been sleeping 4-6 hours a day. Every day I set the alarm for 4 am, a paltry attempt at optimum productivity as I always wake up at 6-ish anyway, only to start the day with a dash of pure, unadulterated despair.

By “start the day” I mean “work.” I go to my desk, I shake the tiny-ass mouse to wake the computer, and I type on the keyboard my 8-digit password. It’s muscle memory at this point. The two monitors brighten up on cue and greet me with the stuff that I failed to complete the nights prior.

Oh what fun to be this dumb! Seriously, man. I am way too slow and way too dumb to get shit done.

The one thing that’s making me quote-unquote happy these days are clothes. Like, literally. I like it when I wear tops and pants and shoes that look cute, at least according to my definition of cute, which doesn’t amount to anything, really, seeing that I have questionable taste in pretty much everything.

Up top is a photo from one of the days when I went to the office to work. I wore a light blue blouse with puff sleeves and a pair of black pants with garterized hem. I bought the pants three, four years ago from a Filipino online seller. I had the impression that she and I had the same body type — skinny, small-framed, tall-ish — but she turned out to be much shorter than I. Pretty sure that those pants were not meant to be capri-length, but I bought them anyway. Again, questionable taste.

Our office does not have a strict dress code, but the big boss requires us to dress “appropriately” during client meetings. The rule is we must never look underdressed in front of clients. I did not have a client meeting that day — September 21, #MarcosNotAHero — so I didn’t go full corporate with my outfit. Looking at the photo now, it seems as if I inadvertently dressed like a hipster who recently started transitioning into a corporate 9-to-5 life. Not too far from the truth, I must say, except I work 9-to-forever.

Anyway, there’s nothing much else to share. I still have a lot of backlogs at work and I need to get them done, stat. Hopefully I get to blog more once this crunch time is over. Meanwhile, let me share some songs that’s been keeping me company during these busy times:

Please, please recommend me some upbeat + lively + catchy music! Am trying my best to stay away from sadgirl shit at the moment. Can’t afford to mope around when you’re broke and you need to hustle.

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